You've made a decision: you wont stop. The pain is necessary, especially the pain of hunger. It reassures you that you
are STRONG, can withstand anything, that you are NOT a slave to your body, that you don't have to give in to it's whining.
I've freed myself from this compulsion of eating. When I wake, I am empty, light, light-headed; I love to stay ts way,
free and pure, light on my feet, travelling as a feather.
For me, foods only interest lies in how little I need, how strong I am, how well I can resist each bite. Acheiving
another small victory of the will. Each gain makes me stronger, purer, larger in my excersizes of power, until eventually
I see no reason to eat at all.
Perfection is easy - it equals not being fat.
There will be long, lean days ahead... Desire can be quelled by a single act of will.
Greed begins where need ends - and we need nothing. Eating is against the rules. Crying is against the rules. You
are strong, don't let them break you. They are trying to destroy you.
Remeasure, reweigh, try harder
The more they give me, the less I'll eat.
Inside us is a thin person struggling to get out, but she is too sedated with a few peices of chocolate cake.
Strarve my pain away, make me beautiful, make everything ok, turn my problems into bone, crush them up, gather the
remains, blow away the dust.
Thin is forever. I will do whatever it takes. I want to be thin more than anything, even food...
Starvation is fulfilling. I will do whatever it takes. Colors become brighter, sounds sharper, odors so much more savory
and penetrating that inhalation fills every fibre and pore of the body. The greatest of food is actually found when never
a morsel passes the lips/
. Thou shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly.
I believe in Control, the only force mighty enough to bring order to the chaos that is my world.
I believe in perfection and strive to attain it.
I believe in salvation through trying just a bit harder than I did yesterday.
I believe in bathroom scales as an indicator of my daily successes and failures.
I believe in hell, because I sometimes think that I am living in it.
I believe in a wholey black and white world, the losing of weight, recrimination for sins, abnegation of the body
and a life ever fasting.